I spent the morning at our local Honda Dealer while they removed the towing hardware from the car. The waiting area is very comfortable with coffee, tea, fruit and snacks, lots of plug ins and Internet. I took my morning walk before I left. It was a beautiful morning. When I decided to continue this blog after Joe died, it was because I wanted to document the many firsts that happens when the love of your life dies and you journey on as a widow, hoping it might help others that are also on this journey. I still miss Joe more than I could even begin to put in to words. I'm not lonely, but it's the alone thing that gets me sometimes.....when I least expect it. When I got home, and was taking things in and out of the car, it hit me. Nothing about the car looks like it had ever been a "toad". That chapter of my life is over. I'm the driver now. Not Joe. I'm the one who has to do the "walk around" making sure tail lights and brake lights work, tires have proper amount of air, Joe's not here to do it and those of you who knew Joe, for sure I'd better make sure that car is clean inside and out. Well I don't clean it like he did but I do run it through the car wash once a week. So thinking about all these things brought the tears. I've learned over these last six months when I start feeling sad, I need to not sit and think, but get up and move. And there has been a lot of rain these last six months. So I walked in the stores close by.
I used my zoom again to get Mt. Hood and I'll be if I didn't do it again!!! Look what's sitting at the very top of that fir tree to the right. I don't know if it's just a starling or crow. I didn't even see it when I was taking the picture.
|Just a single blossom on a dogwood tree.|
After I finished my walk I was sitting out back listening to the birds. Bird choirs are always in tune, perfect pitch, never off key......well, unless a crow tries to join in. Then it gets very quiet.
|Maybe the choir director?|